The above picture ‘looks’ painful, but it’s not.
Confession: I live with pain everyday now.
I have been, this past couple of weeks, forgetful about my afternoon doses of my pain meds. Now, I’m no longer on heavy narcotics, but 3 times a day I take one regular, one extra strength and one Tylenol 3.
It doesn’t take the discomfort away, but it turns generally painful when I miss a dose.
However, I don’t know if I’m supposed to be feeling this way. Deep breaths are awkward, sneezing and coughing are still uncomfortable. I’m not feeling out of breath ever or that my breathing is laboured. Just this general state of being uncomfortable.
I went back to the gym last week, and walking on the treadmill was fine, and when I did the bodyvive class, I was worried. I got through it well, my face was beet red and I’m sure my heart rate was sky high (mental note: wear my HRM next time) but 5 minutes later and my breathing was under control and I felt fine.
Can my body really still be recovering from the trauma from May? I still can’t process when people are surprised that I’m as up and about as I am. They are dumbfounded when I tell them I’m on my gradual back to work plan.
What happens when the Tylenol3’s stop? I only have a week or so supply left, and then my Dr says to control the pain with regular Tylenol.
Will I be left feeling this way forever? Is this the new normal that I’ve signed up for?
Right now, as I type this, I’m getting ready to take my meds, after having missed my afternoon doses. From my neck to my belly button and around my upper shoulders and back feel tense and tight and uncomfortable.
But, should I be describing it as pain?
Pain to me was getting out of bed for the first time post surgery. Pain to me was having chest tubes removed, or sneezing with stitches still in. What I am feeling now is nothing close to that, but it’s still not my normal.
I don’t want to be running to the Dr every time I feel an ache or ‘pain’, but should I be more cautious after my experience.
AAARRRGGHHH!!! I can drive myself nuts with this!
I wish I had something to go on, some guideline I could follow. That’d be great! For now, I’m going to take my meds and go to sleep!