So, there is every possibility that this September at Maritime Race Weekend, I may be dead last in both of my walks. The thought of it makes me sick.
I get that in every race, someone has to be last. I never wanted it to be me. I have this fear that people will laugh and mock and point. I’m afraid the race will be over and people will leave before I finish.
I know I’m not as prepared as I thought I would be.
However, never once have I thought of pulling out, or not going.
I love the bling, but I’m actually beginning to enjoy my other classes more than walking. Is that bad? Should I be more focused on walking? I mean I’m finding my motivation hard to maintain while walking. I always feel negative about it now.
I’m rethinking my whole fitness focus, and I’m not sure where I want it to go yet.