Confession: today was a big ugly truth day mixed with a bit of hope
Yup. That’s a gain. A big ass gain. Yup. I posted it here.
Because there a few things that the number shows me.
1. Never miss a WI if I have any other choice. I don’t ever do well when i have to go two weeks between WI’s
2. I cannot let side effects get my goat. I haven’t had a migraine in two weeks but their side effects are weight gain and increased appetite. Ugh as I try to fight this off!
3. I have learned to appreciate the body I have now, it’s not always but I’m getting there.
Confession: for weeks after my surgery I couldn’t look at myself in a mirror.
Learning to love yourself isn’t easy. We think nothing of saying ‘I’ll be happy with myself once I’m…..’ Inserting your happy weight here. When I was cleared mostly for activity I was proud of myself for getting back into it.
I focused on getting stronger, not on how I looked. I focused on what empowered me to keep moving, and not on the negative voices in my head that told me I was too fat to be there.
I learned not to ‘see” what I look like in class and visualize how I look at my happy weight doing class.
Getting my mind right is the biggest piece of this puzzle, and once I have that; I’ll be unstoppable.
Until then…..I will put on a happy face….